So…this one may be a little deep.
Tonight I had a great half hour with Tim. It’s been a week since I’ve seen him, and slowly, since I’ve been graduated, I have been coming back to “focus” on him and on us. Really, I think that me being in school was no excuse. Yes, I’ve walked through depressed and anxious times in the last year. HOWEVER, he needed me. It hurts me to think that I have no fully been “there,” and I don’t think that it’s a good pattern to set-up. I will say that it shows how God gives us seasons…seasons where we need in each other in different ways and in different levels.
“Lord, thank you for the gift that Tim is. Thank you for his heart to serve. Help heal us as a couple. Help me to find ways to bless him. Help us to grow in our faiths in you, in our faith in you and in the way we love one another. Thank you for tonight, for Tim’s sweet heart, and for a new season for both of us. Father, please go before us. Prepare us to have a marriage that is surrounded by you, comes from you, and serves you and each other. God continue to renew us. I do ask for a job for me, a career in nursing, and for a place for us to make a home. You are Lord of our lives and our new life together- I turn it all over to you once again.”
I look forward to the days ahead. It is difficult for me to stop by head and heart from worry, and trust in God. I feel so fallen, that I cannot trust that the Creator who knows me better than I know myself does not have my complete trust. Father, forgive me. I need your grace and to re-focus on my Savior, on my vision, on His love and heart for me. Life is not without trials, but it is also not without gifts. I am nevous that God will MAKE us wait for a job, for a home….but I need to trust that He will do what is always best.
Hmm…I need Him.
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