OK, do you ever think about how grown up you’ve become…how the young years of care-free are gone away? I worry more, have more stuff to do, and less time to do it. We all do right?
Yuck. I was wondering when the studying will end….and then I found out: NEVER. Nursing is learning all the time. Shoot: LIFE is learning all the time.
I’m finding that I need to be more gracious about the studies, and recognize that knowledge doesn’t mean less freedom, it’s just “informed freedom.” Or so I would like to think :)
I miss the days of endless play. When I listened to sirens and didn’t think of the horrible things that have happened and recognize that sin, and death and suffering are such realities.
Yet, becoming the woman I am, I have had the opportunity to experience LIFE, and to remember that I am not just some mortal woman…but I am fully God’s, and here to be here, in Christ’s gaze and hands and companionship…. whatever comes my way. I find Jesus in people. That’s how God saved: one person at a time. That’s who I am here to be with: one person at a time.
I guess the trick is learning to be. Not just crave more things…the next best thing…but to grow where I am at without the things I do that I think make me what I am.
That’s my thought tonight as I study about progressive autoimmune disorders, and find out how blessed I am to know what I know, and to be doing something by God’s strength.
I wish I could think this way all the time. But I am glad God’s given me this “nugget” of wisdom this eve.
I hope it encourages you, too. I really do.
Nighters
